I am not righteous. Why am I in this prayer?
Read the list again. The righteous, the devoted, the elders, the scribes, the converts. Then one short word at the end of the list: "aleinu," upon us. That is where the person praying stands.
Abudarham notes that the blessing names four groups: the righteous, the devoted, the converts, and us. To explain them he uses the Mekhilta (an early collection of teachings on the Book of Shemot), which reads Yeshayahu 44:5 as four kinds of people answering God. One says "I am Hashem's," meaning wholly His, with no sin mixed in. One takes the name Yaakov, and these are converts. One writes "of Hashem" on his hand, and these are people who came back after sinning. One takes the name Israel, and these are people who fear heaven.
Abudarham matches the prayer to these four. The righteous are the ones who never sinned. The devoted, in his reading, still worry about wrong they did. Then come the converts, and then "us." He says we still say "upon us," even though we do not claim to be people who serve God out of love. We are people who fear heaven.
So the prayer does not pretend. It never says you are righteous. It asks for compassion on you, and then asks that your share be placed with them.
Two cautions. Matching the devoted to people who returned is Abudarham's own reading, not the plain meaning of the word. And his four groups leave out the elders and the scribes. He does not comment on them.
Abudarham, Weekday Prayers, Amidah,Mekhilta DeRabbi Yishmael, Nezikin 18,Yeshayahu 44:5Why are converts in a blessing about the righteous?
The Gemara asks why the Amidah blessings come in this order, and answers each one from a verse. For this one the chain is: once the wicked are gone, the strength of the righteous is lifted up (Tehillim 75:11). Then it adds that the blessing "includes the righteous converts with the righteous." Its proof is two neighboring verses in Vayikra. First: "Rise before the aged, and honor the old." Right after it: "If a stranger lives with you in your land, do not wrong him."
The Tosefta (an early collection of rabbinic teachings) says it another way. The converts' blessing is included in the elders' blessing. The Jerusalem Talmud puts both inside "Trust of the righteous." That places converts in this blessing in some of our earliest sources.
Abudarham gives the Torah's side. For the converts he points to "Love the stranger, for you were strangers in the land of Egypt." He also says the Torah warns many times to love converts, and that God loves them too.
The Gemara treats it as law, too. In Bava Metzia the rabbis teach that someone who hurts a convert with words breaks three commandments, and someone who oppresses a convert in other ways breaks two.
Put together, the sources give three ways in: two neighboring verses, an early list of blessings, and a love the Torah commands.
Megillah 17b,Tosefta Berakhot 3:25,Jerusalem Talmud Berakhot 4:3,Abudarham, Weekday Prayers, Amidah,Vayikra 19:32-33,Devarim 10:19,Bava Metzia 59bIsn't it wrong to ask God for a reward?
The blessing asks God to "give a good reward to all who trust in Your name in truth." But Pirkei Avot (the Mishnah's chapters of sayings from the sages) quotes a teacher named Antigonus of Socho: "Do not be like servants who serve the master in order to receive a reward. Be like servants who serve without that. And let the fear of Heaven be upon you."
The sages knew this saying could be misheard. Avot DeRabbi Natan, an early collection of the sages' teachings, says Antigonus had two students who taught his words to their own students, and those students taught theirs. Then they looked closely at the words and reasoned: would a worker labor all day and not be paid in the evening? If our fathers had known there is another world and that the dead will live again, they would not have said this. So they left the Torah, and two breakaway groups, the Sadducees and the Boethusians, came from them.
The Rambam (Rabbi Moshe ben Maimon, 1100s) tells his own version of the story in his commentary on Avot, and says the students did not understand. Antigonus meant serving from love, not in order to get something back. But the Rambam adds that he did not cancel fear: "even when you serve from love, do not drop fear completely."
Now back to the blessing. Abudarham says the "us" in it are people who fear heaven, not people who serve from love. He ties "good reward" to Tehillim 31:20: "How great is Your goodness that You have stored up for those who fear You."
The sources do not settle this with one rule. They give the ideal, a warning about hearing it wrong, and a prayer whose commentator says openly that its speakers are people who fear heaven, not people who serve from love.
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