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אָהַבְתִּי

Ahavti: Tehillim 116:1-11

Tehillim 116:1 to 11, a rescued person's thanks. Said only on days of full Hallel.

Also said at Chanukah.

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At a glance

Where it sits
Hallel, first half of Tehillim 116 (verses 1-11)
Said in full on
Chanukah, Sukkot, Shavuot, first days of Pesach
Skipped on
Rosh Chodesh and the later days of Pesach
Strangest line
Verse 11: "Every person is a liar"

The moment behind it

King David, as the commentators read it. Rashi (the classic commentator, France, died 1105) says David said it looking back, after King Shaul died and David became king. Radak (Rabbi David Kimchi, Provence, around 1200) adds that David was a refugee among the Philistines.

This is the first half of Tehillim 116, the fourth psalm of Hallel (113 to 118). It comes between Hashem Zecharanu and Mah Ashiv. The Gemara says Hallel is said in full on Chanukah, Sukkot, Shavuot and the first day of Pesach. On Rosh Chodesh and the later days of Pesach, this paragraph is skipped.

Rashi on Tehillim 116:1; Radak on Tehillim 116:9; Kol Bo 52:6; Taanit 28b; Tur, Orach Chaim 422; Shulchan Aruch, Orach Chaim 490:4

The words

Hebrew, then English. Open "What it means" under any line for the explanation.

  1. On Rosh Chodesh, on the middle days of Pesach, and also on the last two days of Pesach, skip this section:

    אָהַבְתִּי כִּי יִשְׁמַע יְיָ אֶת קוֹלִי תַּחֲנוּנָי. כִּי הִטָּה אָזְנוֹ לִי. וּבְיָמַי אֶקְרָא.

    I love that Hashem hears my voice, my pleas. Because He leaned His ear to me, I will call out all my days.

    What it means

    I love that Hashem hears my voice and my pleas. Because He leaned His ear to me, I will call out to Him all my days.

  2. אֲפָפוּנִי חֶבְלֵי מָוֶת. וּמְצָרֵי שְׁאוֹל מְצָאוּנִי. צָרָה וְיָגוֹן אֶמְצָא.

    The ropes of death surrounded me, the straits of Sheol found me. I came upon trouble and sorrow.

    What it means

    Radak asks why trouble "found me" and then "I found" trouble. His answer: troubles catch a person and he cannot run. He also walks into them, because he does not know his time. Sometimes he goes looking for good and finds bad.

    Radak on Tehillim 116:3; Rashi and Ibn Ezra on 116:3
  3. וּבְשֵׁם יְיָ אֶקְרָא. אָנָּה יְיָ מַלְּטָה נַפְשִׁי.

    And I called out in Hashem's name: Please, Hashem, save my life.

    What it means

    Then I called out in Hashem's name: Please, Hashem, save my life.

    The Gemara (the Talmud's record of the rabbis' debates) asks why we say this Hallel and not the Great Hallel, a different set of psalms. Rav Nachman bar Yitzchak (a sage in Babylon, 300s) answers: it tells of saving the souls of the righteous from Gehinnom (the place of punishment after death). His proof is this line.

    Pesachim 118a
  4. חַנּוּן יְיָ וְצַדִּיק. וֵאלֹהֵינוּ מְרַחֵם. שֹׁמֵר פְּתָאיִם יְיָ. דַּלֹּתִי וְלִי יְהוֹשִׁיעַ.

    Hashem is gracious and just, and our God is compassionate. Hashem guards the simple. I was brought low, and He saves me.

    What it means

    Hashem is gracious and just. Our God is compassionate. Hashem guards the simple. I was brought low, and He saves me.

    Who are the simple? Radak: people with no plan to save themselves, who put their trust in God. The Gemara also uses this verse for small risks that many people already take, such as circumcising or letting blood on a cloudy day: "now that many do it, Hashem guards the simple."

    Radak on Tehillim 116:6; Yevamot 72a; Sanhedrin 110b
  5. שׁוּבִי נַפְשִׁי לִמְנוּחָיְכִי. כִּי יְיָ גָּמַל עָלָיְכִי. כִּי חִלַּצְתָּ נַפְשִׁי מִמָּוֶת. אֶת עֵינִי מִן דִּמְעָה. אֶת רַגְלִי מִדֶּחִי.

    Return, my soul, to your rest, for Hashem has been good to you. For You rescued my life from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling.

    What it means

    A midrash (a story the rabbis tell about a verse) pictures Moshe at the end of his life talking to his soul, which does not want to leave. The soul answers with this psalm: "my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling." Then Moshe says: "Return, my soul, to your rest."

    Devarim Rabbah 11:5; Radak on Tehillim 116:8
  6. אֶתְהַלֵךְ לִפְנֵי יְיָ. בְּאַרְצוֹת הַחַיִּים.

    I will walk before Hashem in the lands of the living.

    What it means

    Avot DeRabbi Natan (an old collection of the sages' teachings), in one version, says the World to Come is called "life," and brings this verse as its proof.

    Avot DeRabbi Natan B 43
  7. הֶאֱמַנְתִּי כִּי אֲדַבֵּר. אֲנִי עָנִיתִי מְאֹד. אֲנִי אָמַרְתִּי בְחָפְזִי. כָּל הָאָדָם כֹּזֵב.

    I kept my faith when I spoke, while I was badly afflicted. I said in my panic, "Every person is a liar."

    What it means

    The commentators read these two verses in opposite ways. Verse 10 here follows Radak: "I had great faith, for I would speak when You afflicted me."

    Rashi and Radak on Tehillim 116:10-11

How to say it

Stand for Hallel. The Shulchan Aruch (the main code of Jewish law, 1500s) says so. The Mishnah Berurah (a commentary on daily law, around 1900) explains: Hallel is testimony about God's wonders, and testimony is given standing. If you sat, you still did it.

Shulchan Aruch, Orach Chaim 422:7; Mishnah Berurah 422:28

The story

The group that never got this far

On the day before Pesach, the Temple filled with people bringing lambs, and Hallel was recited while the lambs were slaughtered. They came in three groups. If a group finished Hallel before its lambs were done, it started again. Rabbi Yehuda (a sage of the Mishnah, the first written collection of the Sages' rulings, about the year 200) says the third group never even reached "Ahavti ki yishma Hashem." It was small, so its lambs were done before it got to this paragraph.

Mishnah Pesachim 5:5 and 5:7; Bartenura on the Mishnah

Which "days" is David calling in?

Verse 2 ends, "and in my days I will call." Midrash Tehillim (a collection of the sages' teachings on Tehillim) says these are the good days God gave, such as Shabbat and Sukkot. It reads verse 3's "the straits of Sheol" (the realm of the dead) as the exiles, and offers a verse of rescue: "From the hand of Sheol I will redeem them."

Midrash Tehillim 116; Hoshea 13:14

"Lacking in mitzvot," and still asking

Rava (a leading sage of the Gemara, in Babylonia) hears the whole Jewish people speaking in verse 6, "I was brought low, and He saves me." The people say to God: "Although I am lacking in mitzvot (commandments), I am Yours, and it is fitting for You to save me." The Gemara lets the people admit they fall short, and ask for help anyway.

Pesachim 118b

A pep talk to your own soul

Verse 7 is David talking to himself: "Return, my soul, to your rest." Radak says David used to say this to his soul when he was in trouble: go back to God, and He will be your rest. His reason is in the second half of the verse, "for Hashem has been good to you." Radak adds that God has done it many times, so He will do it now.

Radak on Tehillim 116:7

Hard questions

The psalm starts with "I love," but love what?

The first line is odd. In Hebrew it is ahavti ki yishma Hashem et koli: "I love, that Hashem hears my voice." The words "I love" have nothing after them. Love whom? Love what?

Rashi reads it as a wish: "I longed for Hashem to hear my voice." Ibn Ezra (a Spanish commentator of the 1100s) gives the same reading first: how much I would love for Hashem to hear me when I plead. Then he reports another view, "I love Hashem, because He hears my voice," as if the word Hashem were part of the first phrase. Metzudat David (a commentary on Tehillim from the 1700s) reads it that way too. So does Radak, who adds that it is only right to love Him, since He hears him every time he calls.

Malbim (a commentator of the 1800s) looks at the next verse, "in my days I will call." Plain "days," he says, means good days. So the speaker loved to pray even when nothing was wrong.

Rava hears a question inside the same words. He has the Jewish people ask God: "When am I loved by You? When You hear my pleas." Now the love runs the other way. Feeling loved comes from being heard.

The Hebrew allows all of these. Longing (Rashi), gratitude (Radak), prayer in good times (Malbim) and being loved (Rava) are four answers to what a person is doing when they pray.

Rashi, Ibn Ezra, Radak, Metzudat David and Malbim on Tehillim 116:1,Pesachim 118b

How can a psalm of praise say "every person is a liar"?

Verse 11 is the strangest line in the paragraph: "I said in my panic, every person is a liar." It sits inside Hallel, the psalms of praise. Why is it there?

The Hebrew word, kozev, is not about lying in general. Rashi says it means a trust that fails, like a spring that dries up. He points to Yeshayahu 58:11, "whose waters do not fail." So "liar" here means someone who lets you down.

Rashi gives his own setting and then reports a second one that others give. In his own reading, David is running from his son Avshalom, who rebelled. He has just watched his own son turn on him and all Israel repay good with evil. In the other reading, King Shaul and his men are closing in on David, and "even the prophet Shmuel," who anointed him king, seems to be a liar. Ibn Ezra quotes an earlier commentator, Rabbi Moshe, who also reads the line as being about Shmuel, because Shmuel had promised David the throne.

Radak turns the line around. He says that even in his rush and his danger, David said: anyone who tells me I will not be king is a liar. "This was great faith," Radak writes. He points to Tehillim 31, where David in a rush feared Shaul would kill him, then argued himself out of it, because God had already promised him the throne.

So one verse, two moods. Either everyone fails, or anyone who says God's promise will fail is wrong. Either way, the psalm keeps the rushed moment in.

Rashi on Tehillim 116:11,Ibn Ezra on Tehillim 116:10,Radak on Tehillim 116:11,Yeshayahu 58:11

What are the "lands of the living"?

Verse 9 says: "I will walk before Hashem in the lands of the living." The Hebrew is plural, artzot hachayim, and the sources do not agree on what it means. They give at least three answers.

Rashi and Radak say it is the Land of Israel. Rashi: David's enemies drove him out of it in Shaul's days, and he came back against their will. Radak: the cities of Israel are the lands of the living because the air there is better than in any other land, and the people who live there are healthy.

In the Gemara, Rav Yehuda (a leading sage of the Gemara, in Babylonia) says it means the place of markets. Rashi explains: the place where a person can find food to buy. David was always on the move, wandering from place to place, so he prayed that he would always find something to eat.

A third answer comes from Pesachim 118a, the Gemara passage on the five things Hallel holds, which the page for the blessing before Hallel tells. It finds the dead coming back to life in this verse.

The sources do not choose between these. All three stay standing.

Rashi on Tehillim 116:9,Radak on Tehillim 116:9,Yoma 71a, with Rashi,Pesachim 118a

Sparks

Short ideas from the Chassidic masters, the Kabbalah and the Mussar teachers.

Zohar

God gets up from the seat of judgment

The Zohar (the central book of Kabbalah) says Adam, the first person, was created on Rosh Hashanah. He stood in judgment before God, returned in repentance, and God accepted him. Then God told him: you are a sign for your children in every generation. On this day they stand in judgment, and if they return, I will accept them. I will rise from the throne of judgment, sit on the throne of mercy, and have mercy on them. The next words in the Zohar: "And David said, I love that Hashem hears my voice, my pleas." Now read the first verse again.

אי יתובון אנא אקבל לון, ואיקום מכורסייא דדינא, ואתקיים על כורסייא דרחמי, וארחם עלייהו

Zohar, Parashat Emor
Chassidut

Eating can be walking before God

You might think you are close to God only while you pray, learn Torah, or do a mitzvah, and turned away from Him while you eat, drink, or take care of everyday needs. Rabbi Menachem Nachum of Chernobyl (a Chassidic master of the late 1700s) says that is not true. He quotes Mishlei (the Book of Proverbs): "In all your ways, know Him." Then he reads "I will walk before Hashem in the lands of the living" to mean that even earthly things can be tied to the life of God. Now read "the lands of the living" again.

אתהלך לפני ה׳ בארצות החיים שהארציות יהיה קשורה בחיים חיותו של הקב"ה

Me'or Einayim, Additions
Chassidut

Faith when you see the opposite

Rabbi Kalonymus Kalman Shapira (the Rebbe of Piaseczno, near Warsaw, who was murdered in the Holocaust in 1943) describes two kinds of faith. In the first, a person has seen a sign or a rescue, so he also believes in what he cannot see. Complete faith, he says, is when you see nothing, even see the opposite, and still believe. He reads "I believed, even when I spoke: I was greatly afflicted" this way. Even while I speak Torah and prayer, I am hurt, badly hurt. And I still believed.

אמונה שלימה היא שגם כשאינו רואה מאומה, אדרבה רואה הוא את ההיפך

Rav Kalonymus Kalman Shapira, Derekh HaMelekh, Shabbat Chazon
Chassidut

A little at a time, on purpose

The Gemara (Pesachim 118b) has the Jewish people asking God: "When am I loved by You? When You hear my pleas." Rabbi Levi Yitzchak of Berditchev (a Chassidic master who died in 1809) asks why God does not simply hand out the whole year's blessing, fully spelled out, on Rosh Hashanah. His answer: God wants us to ask Him for what we need day by day, because He loves us and wants to hear our voices all the time. Being heard every day is the sign of being loved. Now read "I will call out all my days."

השם יתברך רוצה שיבקשו מאתו מידי יום ביומו מה שצריכין אליו והוא בשביל אהבת ישראל שרוצה לשמוע קולינו תמיד

Kedushat Levi, Devarim, for Rosh Hashanah; Pesachim 118b
Chassidut

A map of Jewish history

The Sefat Emet (Rabbi Yehudah Aryeh Leib Alter, the Rebbe of Ger in Poland, who died in 1905) says Hallel holds the whole story of the Jewish people, the hard parts too. On Chanukah he reads these verses as a list of exiles: "my life from death" is Babylon, "my eyes from tears" is Media, "my feet from stumbling" is Greece. "I will walk before Hashem" is the future redemption. The feet are already repaired, he says, so what is left is to walk. And Chanukah, he adds, is from the word for training, like training a child to walk alone.

חלצת נפשי ממות רומז לגלות בבל. עיני מדמעה במדי. רגלי מדחי ביון

Sefat Emet, Chanukah, 5652 (1891)

Halacha

The practical laws. For a final ruling, ask your rav.

When do I say this, and when do I skip it?

You say it on the days of full Hallel: the first day of Pesach, Shavuot, all of Sukkot with Shemini Atzeret, and all eight days of Chanukah. Outside Israel, Pesach and Shavuot get two days, and Sukkot nine. On Rosh Chodesh (the start of the Hebrew month), the Shulchan Aruch (the main code of Jewish law) says Hallel is read with skips. It rules the same for Chol HaMoed Pesach (the middle days) and the last days of Pesach. This paragraph is one of the skipped parts.

Shulchan Aruch, Orach Chaim 422:2, 490:4, 644:1, 683:1; Siddur Sefard, Hallel

Is Ahavti always one of the skipped parts?

In both patterns the sources spell out, yes. The Mishnah Berurah (a commentary on Jewish law from around 1900) gives the common one: skip Lo Lanu up to Hashem Zecharanu, and Ahavti up to Mah Ashiv. The Rambam (Maimonides, 1100s) gives one that skips more: Lo Lanu, Ahavti, and also the short psalm after Mah Ashiv and the first lines of Hodu. Both add that some skip differently. The Tur (a law code from the 1300s) says customs vary from place to place, and each place keeps its own.

Mishnah Berurah 422:12; Rambam, Laws of Megillah and Chanukah 3:8; Tur, Orach Chaim 422

Is Chol HaMoed Pesach the same as Rosh Chodesh for this?

Most authorities say yes. The Shulchan Aruch rules that those days are read with skips like Rosh Chodesh, and the Rambam says the same. The Maggid Mishneh (a commentary on the Rambam from the 1300s), quoted in the Beit Yosef (Rabbi Yosef Karo's commentary on the Tur), says this fits all the commentators except the Ramban (Nachmanides, 1200s). The Ramban held that on Chol HaMoed Pesach even an individual must read it with skips, with a blessing, because that is how it was set up.

Shulchan Aruch, Orach Chaim 490:4; Maggid Mishneh on Rambam, Chanukah 3:7; Beit Yosef, Orach Chaim 490

Sources

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  • Mishnah Pesachim 5:7

    קָרְאוּ אֶת הַהַלֵּל. אִם גָּמְרוּ שָׁנוּ, וְאִם שָׁנוּ שִׁלְּשׁוּ... רַבִּי יְהוּדָה אוֹמֵר, מִימֵיהֶם שֶׁל כַּת שְׁלִישִׁית לֹא הִגִּיעַ לְאָהַבְתִּי כִּי יִשְׁמַע ה', מִפְּנֵי שֶׁעַמָּהּ מֻעָטִין.

    They recited Hallel. If they finished it, they said it again, and if they said it again, they said it a third time... Rabbi Yehuda says: the third group never reached "Ahavti ki yishma Hashem," because its people were few.

  • Pesachim 118b

    אָמְרָה כְּנֶסֶת יִשְׂרָאֵל: רִבּוֹנוֹ שֶׁל עוֹלָם אֵימַת אֲנִי אֲהוּבָה לְפָנֶיךָ... בִּזְמַן שֶׁתִּשְׁמַע קוֹל תַּחֲנוּנַי. ״דַּלּוֹתִי וְלִי יְהוֹשִׁיעַ״... אָמְרָה כְּנֶסֶת יִשְׂרָאֵל לִפְנֵי הַקָּדוֹשׁ בָּרוּךְ הוּא: רִבּוֹנוֹ שֶׁל עוֹלָם, אַף עַל פִּי שֶׁדַּלָּה אֲנִי בְּמִצְוֹת, לְךָ אֲנִי וְלִי נָאֶה לְהוֹשִׁיעַ.

    The Jewish people said: Master of the world, when am I loved by You? When You hear the sound of my pleas. "I was brought low, and He saves me." The Jewish people said to God: Master of the world, although I am lacking in mitzvot, I am Yours, and it is fitting for You to save me.

  • Midrash Tehillim 116

    ובימי אקרא. בימים טובים שנתת לי... אפפוני חבלי מות. בני אדם חבולים למות. ומצרי שאול מצאוני אלו הגליות

    "And in my days I will call": in the good days You gave me... "The ropes of death surrounded me": people doomed to die. "The straits of Sheol found me": these are the exiles.

  • Yoma 71a

    ״אֶתְהַלֵּךְ לִפְנֵי ה׳ בְּאַרְצוֹת הַחַיִּים״, אָמַר רַב יְהוּדָה: זֶה מָקוֹם שְׁוָוקִים.

    "I will walk before Hashem in the lands of the living." Rav Yehuda said: this is the place of markets.

  • Rashi on Tehillim 116:11

    כָּל הָאָדָם כֹּזֵב. וּבוֹגֵד בְּאוֹהֵב בּוֹ, כִּי רָאִיתִי אֶת בְּנִי בּוֹגֵד בִּי וּמְבַקֵּשׁ אֶת נַפְשִׁי

    "Every person is a liar." One who betrays the person who loves him, for I saw my own son betray me and seek my life.

  • Radak on Tehillim 116:11

    אפילו בזמן שהייתי נחפז ועני מאד הייתי אומר כל אדם שאומר שלא תהיה לי המלוכה כוזב הוא וזו היה האמונה גדולה

    Even when I was in a rush and in great need, I would say: anyone who says I will not be king is a liar. And this was great faith.

  • Radak on Tehillim 116:7

    כשהייתי בצרה הייתי אומר לנפשי שובי למנוחיכי מהצרה שאת בה... כי הוא גומל עליכי כמה פעמים כן יגמול עתה

    When I was in trouble I would say to my soul: return to your rest, away from the trouble you are in... He has been good to you many times, so He will do it now.

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